One year ago....

I reflect today on how a year can change dramatically. I felt as I start a new blog to begin a fresh start my first post would be how I cam to this moment in my life.

One year ago today on March 1 2013 I was at the courthouse in California filing paperwork to end my marriage. It was the truly one of the hardest days of my life. It had been an 11 month battle to safe a sinking ship and I just had to let go. We we a few month shy of celebrating only 3 years of marriage. So to say I felt like a failure is an understatement. 

I fought hard to save our family but when only one person is trying you just run in circles. I spent many of night on my knees praying to our Lord to guide me through the storm. At the end of the day there is only so much you can do to help an addict and if they don't want it you have to protect yourself and your child. That is the point I came to and had to do the one thing I thought would never happen. Trust me I knew marriage would be tough and I waited till 28 to even take that step, so of course I thought I had seen everything and knew how to make a marriage work...but I was wrong.

So on this day a year ago my world changed. I began my journey into being a divorcee and single mom. My ex had been pretty distant and in and out of the home since April of 2012 but now it was official and he was not welcome back. 

The next few months were kind of a blur of finishing up school, caring for a crazy little amazing boy and figuring out my next step in life. I was surround by so much love with family and friends that allowed me to feel empowered. During the summer of 2013 Lyric was diagnosed with autism (more about that later) and I made the decision to relocate to Texas to be closer to my mom and dad. 

So it has been a year since I filed for divorce, exactly six months since Lyric and I moved to Texas, and tomorrow will be six months since my divorce was final. 

BUT

Tomorrow is also my 32nd birthday and this year will be one for the books. Lyric and I are doing amazing! We have a wonderful life filled with lots of hugs, kisses, snuggles and giggles. My new job that I have been at for a month is wonderful and such a blessing. 

So to end this post I am with a grateful heart tonight...For the Lord has been with me so much as my heart has been heavy and he carried me through. His grace is enough. 

2 Corinthians 12:9 says: But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my powers made perfect in weakness" Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.